Eternal-Nyx

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Hello, My name is Wyn, or Nyx as I go by online. I am a Trans Nonbinary human being and this is my story. Artist:Oliver Kai

  Gonna tattle tell on myself just so I can praise the fuck out of  C atherine, my fiance.  ------------------ Required Context: I have had SEVERE incontinence since July of 2023 due to a miscarriage we had. I spent months in adult diapers and living on puppy pads. Now I'm recovered enough to live day to day just using menstrual pads. But I still suffer with it. More required Context: Cat and I sleep....ahem. Natural. Birthday suit. You get the gist. (All you woo-y moms, don't come for us, Elena has her own bedroom we aren't dumb) ------------------ So. I wake up at 5am with a full bladder. And remember I use a CPAP for sleep apnea. So it's either A) hold it and sleep. B) take off the mask and go to the restroom or C) be a lazy sleep zombie and disconnect the CPAP hose and groan your way to the restroom looking like bane and Darth vaders love child. Obviously I picked C. I do my business and clean myself after peeing only to realize.....there is dried...ahem....feces on

  Glossary: AFAB:  assigned female at birth Enby:  a term used by some nonbinary people as a shortened form of nonbinary; a less formal way to express gender. Transition:  the process through which a trans person or gender expansive person transitions to match their gender. Packer:  A transition item that is basically a prosthetic penis, but can very in function from purely aesthetic to fully functional depending on price and quality. Masc/Femme:  Masculine/Feminine — — —  Why? Why HRT/GAC? Why not therapy? Why not God? Why would you mutilate yourself? — — —       When I initially came out as nonbinary and trans, I was in a very abusive DV situation and was unable to fully and safely explore my gender expression and gender fluidity. Specifically I had to suppress my masc side, to the point of convincing myself I didn't even have one. It took a lot of therapy and healing to finally start to allow this portion of my identity to come to light. Is my entire life one huge “I HATE MY BOD

 Crossposting in a few queer/nonbinary/trans spaces for some idea ping ponging, feedback, solidarity, validation, etc. TLDR: Name change feelings. Skip to step 3 for "the point".  _____________________ When I came out as Nonbinary in 2020, I changed my name entirely online and in real life. The only things lacking have been legalities, which are in the works currently.  _____________________ The name I chose, Wyntre Nyx Mann, Isn't 100% set in stone. So before the changes are unchangeable, I'd like to toss around some ideas and some reservations, and some areas I think I'd like to adjust and fine tweak in these final moments. After all, a name is quite important you know.  _____________________ DISCLAIMER: My deadname WILL be written in this post. I give NO ONE consent to use my deadname in relation to me in any way, shape, or form. Thank you for respecting this boundary in advance <3 I appriciate you choosing respect and kindness.  ____________________________

  Transgender Positivity Post! Today I'd like to shoutout my mother. This woman is my rock. Growing up, was she perfect? Hell no. She made poor choices. She was highly abusive when her seizures were bad. She ran me out of my home as soon as I turned 18 with her behavior. She isn't perfect. But no one is. It isn't often I will forgive an abuser. But my mother was a product of generational trauma, brain tumors, seizures, and reactive abuse as she was often surrounded by abusive people in her youth. So when she said she had gotten help and turned her life around, I listened and gave her a chance. I am so glad I did. My mom was both my mother and my father growing up. Losing my close relationship with her during my teen and college years was hard. I am so lucky I got my mom/dad back. When I came out as nonbinary, she was my first hype squad, my one man cheerleading team. She bought me a flag, helped me pick my name when I changed it, and was open to all the education I was will