Eternal-Nyx

I posted the following wall of text to my facebook following an incident where my blood grandmother, whom is still following me and friends with me on facebook and has yet to block me despite hanging up on and disowning me, reshared a political post in favor of a candidate who would see much anti trans legislature passed. 

TW/CW: Familial Transphobia Sigh. My turn to take to the internet for a venty transphobic family rant.  I feel like I tried. I feel like I really and truly tried but my hands feel tied and it sucks.  When I came out as trans/nonbinary/genderfluid, I was one of the lucky few where most of my family was super supportive. I didn’t lose anyone, my mom bought me a flag, my brother came out as trans, even my niece and nephew have been brave enough to come out as queer. My mom just recently came out as aro/ace spec! So really I am SURROUNDED by positivity and support.  So why does it hurt so bad to have that one family member that just can’t get on board?  It’s been a running issue in my family since we all came out over the past few years that my Grandmother, my mothers Mother, cannot accept or respect our identities. My brother walked out one Christmas, cut off contact with her, and never looked back. He’s tried to reconcile but holds firm to his boundaries and I am so pr...

  9/27/2023-10/24/2023 Days 1 - 28 Today is day 29 of my HRT diary! Holy shit! As of writing this, I have just taken my 5th injection.  Let's throw together a quick little list of the changes we've seen during month 1.  Month 1: September 27th 2023 - October 26th 2023 Days 1 - 30 Week 1 September 27th 2023 - October 3rd 2023 NSFW:  When I find alone time and find myself aroused, I have a daily habit to get into our shared toy box and do my thing. Well today, I noticed I could FEEL things with my fingers, and it was bigger. Not by a lot but I KNOW my anatomy, and my AFAB parts are heavily hooded and usually don’t extend past the hood even when aroused. Today was different, and that is ALL I will say to anyone about my genitals. Then when all was done it was less plump, but still slightly larger than I am used to. I HAD MY FIRST ERECTION! And not only that, but I have growth!!!!!! On day fucking 2!!!! I’m gonna cry Also….It’s itchy. And I seem to be unable to stop bein...

  Long post ahead! It's national coming out day today! 🏳️‍🌈 🏳️‍🌈 🌈 🌈 Time for my yearly Re-Coming out! Hi My name is Wyntre Nyx Mann. My Pronouns are They/He/She in that preference order. I go by Wyn. I'm Sapphic Bisexual, Nonbinary/Genderfluid/Trans, & Ambiamorous. My name? I am legally changing it. I have been publicly out for 2+ years. Please start referring to me correctly and using my correct name. I have no problem cutting people out of my life who continue to deadname me. You've had enough time. I. am. Wyn. I plan to come out every damn year all over again because guess what. Sexuality, gender, relationship dynamic. Its all a SPECTRUM. Its all fluid. It can change. Its ok if it changes. You thought you were gay but you are bi? Its ok if you feel a need to come out a second time. You weren't faking. It wasn't a phase. You learned more about yourself and discovered more about your identity and that should be CELEBRATED not hidden. If it isn...

First 7 days of HRT Woah!! Today is DAY 7 of my HRT diary! Holy shit! Tomorrow marks the start of week two, and my second injection. Holy cow. Its only been a week? So many changes ALREADY. Let’s waste no time and dive right in! Day 1 September 27th 2023 No Noticeable changes Day 2 September 28th 2023 NSFW: When I find alone time and find myself aroused, I have a daily habit to get into me and my fiancé’s shared toy box and do my thing. Well I did my normal thing today, and I noticed I could FEEL things with my fingers. So I did a LIL inspection and it was bigger. Not by a lot but I KNOW my anatomy, and my AFAB parts are heavily hooded and usually don’t extend past the hood even when aroused. Today was different, and that is ALL I will say to anyone about my genitals. Then when all was done it was less plump, but still slightly larger than I am used to. I HAD MY FIRST ERECTION! And not only that, but I have growth!!!!!! On day fucking 2!!!! I’m gonna cry Also….It’s itchy. And I se...

Whew been a minute since I updated hunh? Well, it’s been busy! I got approved to start testosterone HRT on September 25th, 2023. I was surprised. I live in a bible belt, conservative, state and town. The trans health care here is…..the best word I have is mental whiplash. I started with a PCP at Medical Group A. He said he wasn’t qualified for trans or gender care and that no one in practice A was. He then said that there are rotating residents who DO the gender care and he put me on a wait list with them. I finally got to the appointment after a couple months and it was so easy. They used my chosen name and pronouns. They were respectful. Almost too respectful They tap danced around terminology to try to avoid offending me. It was……strange? Surreal? Twilight Zone? The Matrix? Either way. It felt very formal and professional and I do very much like the resident. It was just a very surreal experience. But she was satisfied with our appointment and sent out the prescription the same day....

     As a member of multiple minority communities (disabled, neurodivergent, queer, etc.), I often surround myself with like minded folk who I can connect with deeper. This unfortunately means that sometimes, I tend to “forget to remember” that people outside of my circles still exist.      Last night, as I lay in bed in the arms of my fiancé, I had one of these “surreal” moments. We were laying in bed after a long and hard day. She was exhausted from work and chores and almost asleep. I was laid across her breasts and shoulders, holding her head closely and massaging her hair. Her hand clasped my wrist and her thumb drew circles on my hand as she drifted. As I started to drift into sleep myself, I felt my body grow heavier and melt into hers. We were one in that moment, perfectly blended and sharing a moment of love, bliss, peace, and hushed whispers of sweet nothings and affirmations of love. A rare form of intimacy that just forms on its own and and buil...